One month ago, on January 21st, Logan came into the world. Wow, what a month of learning, lack of sleep, surprise, and frustration.

You would never have know there was so much to learn with a new baby, Of course, all the moms out there knew this, but being a first time dad I am in still in shock. I knew about the lack of sleep, the diapers, the crying, even the adjustment to the new schedule changes in the normal day to day life routines. But wow, all the new stuff I have had to learn. Did you know that a baby’s stomach is only the size of a grape when they are born, so you have to feed them every 2 to 3 hours at first? If you wrap a baby up in blanket like a burrito (head outside blanket) they will sleep better. Most the time, the babies poop looks like watery mustard, umm....tasty right? Oh, they seem to go through about 15 of those a day. Oh, and don't forget about the umbilical cord that piece of melted plastic that you are always scared you are going to pull off by accident with the diaper change.

Sleep, what was that like? I truly can say there have been a few days that I was a walking zombie and have periods of time I do not remember. What really gets me is the fact Mary gets lots less sleep than me and she always seems ready to go. How does she do it I wonder, must be in the hormones? As time passes he is giving us 3 or 4 hours sometimes, and Mary does usually give me the nights so I can stay awake at work. We both have our fingers crossed for those rumors we have heard about 6 hours at a time.
Surprisingly, the crying squeals of Logan can tighten your chest and make it hard to breathe sometimes. I remember looking over at Mary on one of these fits Logan was throwing and asking her, “does your chest tighten up like mine does?” Her response to this was, “yes”; who would have known? Just like, who would have know a little baby that weighs 9 pounds can produce 16 diapers a day, and can produce the shear amount of make you gasp for air, oh my god what was that smell and sound, like Logan. There is but one word, wow. But when it is all said and done, the surprising way you feel inside when he looks up at you, it is amazing.

Well, as the first month has come to an end, there have been all kinds of emotions, even some frustrations. There is no greater feeling of hopelessness as when you hear the cries, and see the pain in the face, but can do nothing but hold him. Having to get up and leave your new son to go to work, when you desperately want to stay home and stare at him defiantly brings frustration as well. I am sure there is so many more moments, just waiting to come on in. I am wondering what month two will bring, fingers crossed for 6 hours of sleep.

John